10
Nov

hello son

It’s taken me days to wrap my mind around what to write.

We waited and waited for this day and I really think that for me, I stuffed down a lot of what I have been feeling about Samuel until Sunday evening. 

I mean, at first in the summer, I couldn’t even believe that I was to be his new Mama.

Then there was the matter of the Canadian approvals.

Then I wondered, would we manage to get our dossier to the CCAA in time?

And then here we were, getting ready to meet our son face to face.

So Sunday night we were so excited.

We realized with the time change we had last Saturday night that our time with him would be an hour earlier.

We prepped the video camera.

We sat down with the kids gathered around us.

And we waited for that first message that asked us to hit the call button.

And then all of a sudden there he was! 

“Hey-yo”, in a sing song voice.

And it was all over.

I can’t speak for Stephen, but I had the biggest case of stage fright.

Like a young girl over her first crush.

This is no longer some abstract idea to me that I can control and keep in an emotional box.

He is no longer just sweet Samuel.

He is my son.

And I ache to have him here with the rest of our herd.

I need to get there.

Someone is missing and suddenly I know it as well as I know anything.

{gulp}

 

 

Comments

  1. Oh my! Wonderful news! Praying you will be with him SOON!!!

  2. gulp is right….that brought tears to my eyes. What a sweet precious gift he is. You will all be very blessed. Hearing him say “MaMa” must have made your heart sing
    Kim

  3. Oh! That was so wonderful to see! What an amazing moment. Great idea to get it on video.

  4. Did he just say Mama? Oh. My. Word.
    I am dying here for you.

    Cannot wait to see him in your arms!

    Jill

  5. Thank you for your sweet comment on my blog today!! I popped over to see you and found you had received some incredible news!! Congratulations!

    Thank you for visiting my blog. :o)

    Blessings, Justine

  6. That sweet VOICE! how I miss it!

    How awesome it is that you get to “meet” Samuel before you bring him home? Congrats 🙂

  7. Oh, goodness. Isn’t he amazing?

    I served at ND in April-May (and I’m Canadian, too!)

    My best memory of your son? He would sit behind me with a plastic knife from the play kitchen… and pretend to brush my hair, over and over.

    Huge congrats and best wishes 🙂

  8. My friend that was so amazing to see. With tears in my eyes … what a blessing. Thank you for allowing us that glimpse of your sweet son that we all love so.

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